Date: Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Time: 7:50 PM
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Time: 7:50 PM
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& I look at myself in the mirror, I can't see myself.
All I can see is the darkness of my soul fogging up the glass.
I feel a cut so deep, that a knife can't even cut that far.
I'm just going to lay here and watch as the world slowly fades from my mind.
Leaving reality, but not leaving behind .
With every step i take i feel like i fall more and more deeper into the ground .
Arghhh ..!!
Its funny how in one split second your life can change .
And everything is perfect, then in another split second your life can change again .
And its just the end of your ever ending happiness .
It's as if im stuck in the past..
Being a shadow of myself...
But as time moves forward,
It feels like I have been left behind...
It hurts so much to look at you..
And I know That I will never be a part of that smile again...
Let's pretend for a moment That I really am what everyone thinks I am...
Strong, Handsome and a Smart person .
How can I be all that when I really just want to breakdown in front of everyone and show them how truly weak, ugly, and stupid I am?
I dunno why I feel this wayy .
Khaty, I know that I've not been such a nice Bf to you after all this while.
But trust me, I really do love you.
I have Once Loved You, Still do and forever will yeahh Baby !
No one can replace you from my heart ?
Where have you beeN ?
No messages ? No calls ?
Why are you ignoring me Khaty ?
Arguements and Jealousy is part and parcel of a relationship?
But that does'nt meant that we have to end our relationship here.
I just wanna you to know how much you meant to me ?
I just hope that You're reading this.
I really2 do love you.
Meet up soon yeahh Baby .
All the memories we used to had, It will remain with me forever .
ILYSM KHATY !
Im so sorry readers, Im Being so emo and sad in this post.
But I just can't help it.
I jus need to let it all out.
I miss my Gf so muchh .
Niwae, Thanks for reading yeahh .
Update again soon.
Toodles.