Date: Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Time: 11:35 PM
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Time: 11:35 PM
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& Life has been quite Okie for me lately.
School ended around 1 pm just now.
Then went to tamp Mall to survey for watch as I'll be buying one soon.
After That slacked for a while and off home-ed.
Werked from 6 pm - 10 pm.
Werk was very tiring .
Non-stop Q Calls.
Tired Uhhs .
Overall, Today was a great yet Tiring day.
Well, Just a little thought to share.
I've been thinking .
I dun know why .
But My self-Confidence of myself seemed to have dropped lately.
I seemed to have no hope and confidence of myself.
I don't think That I will be sucessful in love life.
Ever since I broke off with My ex-Gf Khaty .
I thought Life would be better off being single.
But, I was proven wrong .
Jealousy do comes by whenever I see couples walked past me.
I Do not know why .
I may not be some hot or handsome guy that all girls may dream off.
But Im trying my best to be myself and get myself a long lasting relationship as compared to my previous one.
But I failed.
I dunno why, I ended up being hurt instead.
For the sake of my love,I have to hurt my own self and put on a fake smile.
I may be smiling or laughing outside, But the truth is that, Im just a very sad and lonely Boy.
It hurts to see whenever the person I love is out with someone else.
Thinking of someone else.
Asking about someone else.
Worst, If the person she asked is your own friend.
How would you feel ?
I felt sad and torn apart.
But still, I put on that fake smile whenever Im with her.
So that she could be happy and I'll be happy whenever I see her happy.
Well, I have come to a conclusion and decision.
Till when I wanna be hurt like this.
I will let her go.
I will try to forget her out of my heart, To like and not to love.
It is hard but I will have to .
For the sake of her and someone's else happiness.
I would do it.
Besides, We could never be together.
There are so many boundaries that seperate us apart.
So it's best if I step aside.
I would move on.
For now, We will be friends yeah, Close friends.
I will always be there for you.
DO know, that whenever you need me, I will always be there for you.
DO take good care of yourself, And hope you will find the perfect guy.
I will pray for your happiness always.
Love ya as a friend .
Take Care .
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